I am whining to my blog instead of Facebook because I know that fewer people read this and I'm not trying so much as to garner sympathy as to whine. I just want to feel better and understand why I feel so bad. I'm beginning to think I have had the flu somehow though it seems too early. My symptoms were all chest and body achy and not cold like. I thought it was allergies at first. But then once I got to taking a z pack (obtained through 😷 gotten means) I'm feeling better. Except for the diarrhea as a result of the z pack. I know way too much information.
Last night I slept much better and work up feeling not so bad. I refrain from saying I felt good but I didn't feel like I was dying anymore. However after I took my computer to my office, thinking I felt good enough to actually accomplish something, I quickly became disabused if that notion. My head still hurts and my body still aches. I have that fluy feeling in my head. I'm setting alarms for myself to drink every 20 minutes in case I'm just dehydrated. My skin is a little tenty. My cough is still ugly but looser.
I do know I'm at the end of being sick. I just want the end to be over.
On the positive side I'm a little hungry today. I just made the Pillsbury orange rolls I've had in the fridge. Another positive is that I have lost 4 pounds this week and reset my appetite in ways I couldn't have done if I"d been trying. So, now I will honor the smaller stomach. Of course, I also decided to quit logging my food one week ago so I have no idea if I have eaten right not.
I have been watching the Waltons and the theme song and the sound of John Boys voice are stuck in my head. I was dismayed that they left out the last 2 episodes of the 1st season which was when Olivia got Polio. I suspect the waltons was part of why I was fascinated with that disease as a kid. I remember getting my sugar cub treatment when I was little and then reading about it in the encyclopedia. Now I periodically read about it online. I remember my 2 favorite areas of the 1976 Encyclodia Britanica was about Leprosy and Polio...one b/c of the Bible and the other b/c of The Waltons.
I have been observing how loose the details were in that show as well. It started in about 1934 and they do name certain historical events I didn't know anything about. In the last week I have read about the CCC, the gold act (where people had to turn in their gold coins) and the WPA. I am seeing how FDR was a socialist but he was able to get the country going again. I find myself wondering if or how that could work today and I don't see how it could. Obviously I didn't live in that time, but I just don't see Americans banding together like they did in the depression to fix the money issue America was having. Of course, I also wonder if the war wasn't the real reason the depression ended all over the world. I wish there were some way to study historical events from different perspectives so that an "honest" point of view could be help. OR at least if commentary was given in a more neutral way, it would be interesting to see who was "right". I like to see all sides of a conflict and make up my own mind.
It seems like I would like to write more, but then again I'm not sure I should. I am mulling over things in my mind that I am not ready to commit to paper so will them for another time.
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