Tuesday, August 21, 2012

First of the school year jitters

I am working on my schedule for the new school year and I find that I am not happy with the way it is turning out. I have taken on some extra hours which are necessary financially, but are wearing on me emotionally.  Maggie is going to live with her dad and go to school in Azle. Since she won't be home at night, there is no reason for me not to work every evening seeing kids. This means that i will have some free time during the day, but will be gone from home every night until 9 or later Monday through Thursday. I'm going to have some free days, but since one of my running around friends went back to work, I have no one to spend those days with. I'm used to having my days free to be with Maggie, but she won't be here.  I like to be home alone and i haven't had any time alone lately, so I think it will be ok for a few weeks...but taking care of four horses alone will be no fun, riding four horses alone, will be no fun.  My fall just seems kind of dark and sad to me right now. It will be hard to sleep enough getting home late, going to bed late and then Peter getting up early.  It will be hard to eat right since I will have to eat dinner on the fly or it will be cold food or leftovers. It will be difficult to resist the pull of fast food, especially on Wednesdays which is my really long day.  I know that I am able to be strong and continue working on my goals. I just also know that I really enjoyed my summer schedule and will miss being home at night. Not only will I miss Maggie, I will miss spending time with Peter as well. ti's going to be a lonely existence. 

4 comments:

April said...

OK I don't want to tell you what to do. But here is a suggestion. List out the good things. You could take a nap. You are going to get to have time to do what you want. It is all how you look at it and then you will see the possibilities. Hope to see you soon at Trace Trails. - April

April said...

Alice, it is all how you look at it. Keep a positive attitude and look at what opens up. It will be good. Hope to see you at the ride. - April

Alice said...

Yeah, I know. I can't do anything about it anyway. It's how it's going to be. I just have to find a way to have enjoy the time I have at home and with Maggie on the weekends. He's starting a new game with friends every other Sunday and we're gone riding every other weekend through the beginning of November. It's going to be a challenge to stay connected.

Alice said...

I hope that you can come to the ride. Will you be volunteering or riding? I sure need entries.