I am once again realizing how hard it is to get people to see you the way you see yourself. Somehow I have left people with the idea that because I am gregarious that I am less business like. What I find interesting is that I know people who are very talkative..at least or more talkative than I am, but they don't have the same reputation.
I want to quit caring about how other people see me. I want to be the person outwardly I am inside. I don't like to feel uncertain of myself. I am actually pretty comfortable with myself but then when I exhibit my confidence and competence I end up running up against resistance. It's as though I am threatening when I'm confident and sure. I find myself wondering why people feel like they can question me about things that I know are correct. I don't mean normal dialog but actual confrontation when I don't have the same agenda.
What makes one person more respected than another? I wish there was a class I could take to learn how to be more respected and for my words to carry more weight. Over the years I have grown quieter and quieter but people still find me to be overly chatty. After awhile I had to say that this is who I am, take me or leave me. Now I just need to learn not to care.