I hear this all the time and never have I really felt it more than this year. I have been getting ahead a bit...working more and seeing more clients, making more money, but then in November that just sort of came crashing down with our two weeks illness. In my adult life I have never missed 2 weeks of work in a row from work for any reason and this wasn't even for fun. Then I worked 3 weeks, got through the holiday week where I saw just a few clients and got sick again. This second time was almost work, shorter lived but with the wheezing and asthma I used to get in my childhood. I had to get prednisone from the doctor which came with it's own hazards and feeling bad. I have now been sick for so long I can honestly say I'm sick of crocheting and watching TV. There is so much work that needs to be done and watching McLeod's daughters (almost done, in the 7th of 8 seasons now) makes me see how much work we need to be accomplishing at our own place...only now Mike is sick too.
Today is a pretty but cold day outside. I'm in my office, working on paperwork. I have a gas heater and 3 of the dogs are in here next to it to stay warm. It's not that cold, but for someone who has been wheezing all night, and who's sleep has only just gotten back to normal, it's good to inside. I had really hoped to do something with one of the horses today, but I think I'm just going to have to leave it for now. I'll have to go out and feed eventually, but I'm stalling because I want to do my paperwork...well, I'm stalling doing everything but writing in my blog.
Maggie will be moving back to Weatherford at the end of the week. She is taking back her old job at the barn where she will make more money and be with her friends and go back to school at Weatherford college. Coming here and trying on some other classes has made her see exactly what she doesn't want to do. Whether it ends up being the mortuary sciences like she was thinking, or some sort of farm management/business, she is happy to be going back. She gave it a good go here, but Gatesville just hasn't been for her at all. She will stay with her dad a few weeks and then she will get her trailer registered and we will move it up to her friend's farm where she can live for relatively low rent and have a horse. This will make us all happy so we have less mouths to feed.
Soon Ember and Ivan should be going next door to my friend, Jenna's, house. She is literally our next door neighbor even though it's 2 miles away. Ember seems to be the slower and more calm of the two. Ivan is very showy and will be a good horse for them down the road. They will likely send them to training before they do any real competitions with them, though Jenna is quite the horse woman and Rena, only 13, has great instincts. Rena already rides Ember around here all over the place and they have a good time, no saddle. I'd really like to see our herd get reduced. A couple of old ones are kind of just hanging on. It would be good to have fewer horses.
I lay awake a long time worrying last night. I hate that we have a surplus or we have a shortage. I do know that it always works out, but sometimes I wish I had a job with a regular paycheck and sick days. Once I start to worry about one thing then I worry about everything. It all snowballs on me. And it seems to do it worse whenever I am unable to fix it...being sick I cant get on it.
It seems like this is the longest I have been down and inactive in my memory. Even when I fractured my arm last summer I was back at it pretty quick. When I broke my shoulder I was a young stay at home mom and I was pretty good after the first couple weeks. Not being able to breath has just been miserable.
I know that my dad wanted me to come up this last Christmas, but it was good I didn't. I really like having Christmas at home with our grandchildren. And I just didn't have the cash. I mean, I could have done, but it would have been money that needed to go elsewhere. I know he didn't really understand but sometimes it's just the way it is. I know that Texas not close, but they travel other places and with the farm we really try not to anymore than we have to. This year I'm cutting back on a lot of things. We are going to rides, but we will be volunteering more and competing much less, if at all. I do admit, having been sick at home, I'm kind of ready to get out there. Wherever there is.
Today is a pretty but cold day outside. I'm in my office, working on paperwork. I have a gas heater and 3 of the dogs are in here next to it to stay warm. It's not that cold, but for someone who has been wheezing all night, and who's sleep has only just gotten back to normal, it's good to inside. I had really hoped to do something with one of the horses today, but I think I'm just going to have to leave it for now. I'll have to go out and feed eventually, but I'm stalling because I want to do my paperwork...well, I'm stalling doing everything but writing in my blog.
Maggie will be moving back to Weatherford at the end of the week. She is taking back her old job at the barn where she will make more money and be with her friends and go back to school at Weatherford college. Coming here and trying on some other classes has made her see exactly what she doesn't want to do. Whether it ends up being the mortuary sciences like she was thinking, or some sort of farm management/business, she is happy to be going back. She gave it a good go here, but Gatesville just hasn't been for her at all. She will stay with her dad a few weeks and then she will get her trailer registered and we will move it up to her friend's farm where she can live for relatively low rent and have a horse. This will make us all happy so we have less mouths to feed.
Soon Ember and Ivan should be going next door to my friend, Jenna's, house. She is literally our next door neighbor even though it's 2 miles away. Ember seems to be the slower and more calm of the two. Ivan is very showy and will be a good horse for them down the road. They will likely send them to training before they do any real competitions with them, though Jenna is quite the horse woman and Rena, only 13, has great instincts. Rena already rides Ember around here all over the place and they have a good time, no saddle. I'd really like to see our herd get reduced. A couple of old ones are kind of just hanging on. It would be good to have fewer horses.
I lay awake a long time worrying last night. I hate that we have a surplus or we have a shortage. I do know that it always works out, but sometimes I wish I had a job with a regular paycheck and sick days. Once I start to worry about one thing then I worry about everything. It all snowballs on me. And it seems to do it worse whenever I am unable to fix it...being sick I cant get on it.
It seems like this is the longest I have been down and inactive in my memory. Even when I fractured my arm last summer I was back at it pretty quick. When I broke my shoulder I was a young stay at home mom and I was pretty good after the first couple weeks. Not being able to breath has just been miserable.
I know that my dad wanted me to come up this last Christmas, but it was good I didn't. I really like having Christmas at home with our grandchildren. And I just didn't have the cash. I mean, I could have done, but it would have been money that needed to go elsewhere. I know he didn't really understand but sometimes it's just the way it is. I know that Texas not close, but they travel other places and with the farm we really try not to anymore than we have to. This year I'm cutting back on a lot of things. We are going to rides, but we will be volunteering more and competing much less, if at all. I do admit, having been sick at home, I'm kind of ready to get out there. Wherever there is.
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